If I won one million dollars, what will I do with it?
Put it in the bank, wait for the interests and spend the interests. Well, that I say will never happen considering: a. I don’t join contests that give such amount and b. I’m not lucky when it comes to lotteries.
I’m the girl who doesn’t believe in the phrase, “get rich overnight” – that doesn’t make any sense at all. And I believe to put such amount in my bank account means hard work and determination.
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If I will be given the chance to study abroad, will I take it? Maybe yes. Maybe no. If the opportunity will be given by a relative, I would ask “why?” and “what do you want me to do in return?” Even if they answer the second question with, “nothing” or “I just want you to have a better future” (or somewhere between those lines), I’m confident there will be something in return – maybe not now, maybe later.
In Filipino term, this is what I call “utang na loob.”
My only debt is to my mom and of course, to God. That’s it. I don’t have any debt to other relatives or friends. My debt to my mom is a price that I can never afford to pay and it will take a lifetime to pay her and this I’m willing to do. But how am I going to pay her? This is what I’m scared of.
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My dream is to work at Walt Disney Company 10 years from now (that means I’ll be 28 years old). I would take risks just to climb the shaky stairs, no matter how long and difficult it would, I would do it.
2 years from now, I would be graduating college and will soon find stepping stones to my dream. Where will I work? Whose feet am I going to step on? Who and what do I have to face? It’s frightening. It seems like I want to back out and just settle in my comfort zone.
But that will not pay my debt to my mother.
My plan is to work in the US, to find an international and decent company to work with, and to save up. But the thing is, I have to leave my life in the Philippines and start from scratch – literally from scratch. A cheap place I can stay while working, finding new friends and building another wall of trusts, and lastly (and most frightening of all) a bank account with $0.00 in it.
Thinking about it makes me want to give up. A fear that is eating my goals in working at the company I’m dreaming of. I can’t depend on my mom to give me a monthly allowance while I’m an ocean away from her – possible but highly not recommended. She can’t give me money when I ask, no. Providing me of my needs for 21 years (I’m talking about the future) is already enough and I have to stand on own two feet.
My happiness, success and the feeling to make my mom proud of me is making me determined.
Life is not easy and in an instant. I can’t live comfortably while building a stable ladder to the top, no! Its not that easy. I don’t want to drive a BMW while starving, living in a beautiful condominium while swimming in debt. That’s not what I want or to experience. I might have relatives around me, but I don’t want to be in debt to them. No, I don’t want to add another person to my list (unless they want to help me without asking anything in return, haha.)
If I have to work overtime or get two jobs its fine with me, as long as, this will be my stepping stones and gaining more experience. Everything will happen as long as keep my eyes on the goal and my brain focus on it.
Paying and giving her a life she wants will be the second priority in my life. Yes, my first priority is working, or for now studying. Laziness and procrastination will be out of my system the moment I get home.
I’ll be paying my debt in a few years.
Now…
What will I do to get that one million dollars?
